I was 19, it was my first year of university. I had a surgical abortion at 12 weeks with local anaesthetic. I knew from the second I thought I was pregnant that I was getting an abortion. I’ve never regretted it, it was the wisest decision I’ve ever made. But I do think about it most days.
I’d recently split up with the father, I’d been drinking quite a bit (like most students, and like a lot of people after a break up!). I wasn’t mentally ready to be a parent; my own parents definitely would never have been okay with it so I doubt I’d have had a place to live; I didn’t want my life tied to an ex; I had no financial income; I had an education and a career to try and build; and with the amount I’d been drinking before I realised I was pregnant, the baby probably wasn’t okay either.
Best decision I’ve ever made.
I never thought I wanted children, but getting pregnant and deciding to abort made me realise that one day I do – but by then it will be a point when I’m excited to see that little positive cross.